It's been a whole 12 days since I last had a cigarette. That's the longest I've gone without one for many years. I last had one on Tuesday September 14th (and I only had one smoke that entire day), which was the day I was sent to hospital. I've had some really strong cravings for a smoke but have managed to resist so far.
There is a full packet of smokes sitting here which I have not touched - I have come up with a theory that if I throw them out, part of me would think the only reason I haven't smoked is because I didn't have any cigarettes. I figure if I can resist the temptation, it's because of my own will, not just because I didn't have a choice. Seems to be working for me anyway - will power versus deprivation. We have nicotine patches and gum if it gets too hard, but I've managed to go without their assistance so far. Kinda stressed a little though.
Peter van Vroonhoven | September 26, 2004 5:34 PM | Reply
Just think about how much longer your life will be, with IceQueen, with every smoke you dont have.
erin | September 28, 2004 12:29 AM | Reply
it is hard to quit... i had to replace the habit with other stuff like chewing gum, hobbies, exercise, etc. if you can commit to smoking maybe you can commit to other things? Hope things gets easier for you demon... wondering if perhaps the smoking is what might be causing some the sicknesses to really grab hold. this isn't the first time you have gotten really sick - if i remeber correctly, i think you got pretty sick this last year too. so, not smoking may just up your immune system. that is a positive spin (i think). chin up :o)